Today, i am reminded of my sad, cruel fate.
I HAVE TO GO TO BOARDING SCHOOL!!
Ok, so those of you may not know this,
but cempaka has this boarding school part,
and i'm gonna be staying there!
It'll probably start next year.
BUT, at least i have some freedom?
Lights out is at 11 (i think)
and curfew is like at 10 (i think)
but i don't really remember.
It'll be alright, i guess..
but i'm scared!
I told mum that i'm worried about how i'm gonna meet my friends!
And she said that the house mistress or whatever,
would organize some transport for me,
so i have FREEDOM!!

My lovely father, just had to mention boarding school today.
It turned my smile, upside down!
I almost cried for god's sake!
But now, i guess i'm alright with it.

In australia,
i was so sad, finding out that i had to move,
but i never cried infront of anyone,
not that i was stopping myself,
but i just couldn't,
but i cried at night,
when everyone was asleep.
Sometimes, when i was feeling sad,
i thought to myself, i don't care if i go,
it's not like anyone will miss me,
it's not like my life will get any worse.
But that goes away after a day or so
and i'm back to not wanting to go
back to wishing that it was canceled,
and i don't have to move!

But now, i'm happy with moving.
Dad said to me, if i'm not going to boarding school,
i might as well go back to australia.
It kinda made me sad,
coz i've made new friends and everything,
and i don't want to go back,
coz i'll miss them,
but then i think,
yay!
i'll see my friends in australia again!

It's so hard!
One half of me wants to stay here,
but the other half wants to go back to australia!
I want to be with my friends in both places!!
I don't want to leave anyone behind..
Actually, today, i think i almost cried,
like, the tears were pooling in my eyes,
when mum was talking to me,
and i couldn't tell if i started crying,
or not,
coz there was so much water in my eyes!

Ok, now it's time to tell you a funny story!
So, in yr 5 we were practicing this song,
and i was sitting next to my friend, Monica.
Halfway through the song, she told me to sing louder,
so i did,
and then she said
shh, not that loud,
and then we started laughing,
i laughed so hard, that i started crying!
After we finished the song,
Ms Walsh (my teacher at the time)
Said that was good,
and something about the two girls in the middle laughing half way through it!
She told me to go out, and wash my face,
coz i laughed so hard, that i was crying.
It was so friggin funny!

And this time, i think it was in kindergarten, or yr 1
but me and my friend (amy)
were sitting together at break.
And i was being retarded,
and making her laugh,
laugh so much, that she started crying!
And then the teacher walked pass,
and saw her crying.
And asked if she was alright.
I don't really remember, but i think she may have glared at me,
thinking that i made amy cry!
Anyways, so when she left,
me & amy started laughing,
coz she thought amy was crying coz she was bullied, or hurt!

haha, memories.
Please, if you sense that i'm not in a good mood,
try and make me happy,
and make me be my retarded self again,
if not,
you'll be dealing with a very emo,
girl.
And i won't be any fun.

ttyl
lurvs yahh
xoxo
muah