Today i had a BIG fight with my mum. Well, she's not my mum anymore. She is just an ordinary person in my life. And what was i thinking? Thinking about giving khal a chance. Well, those to people now have nothing to do with me. i HATE them. And i have no idea how i'm EVER gonna forgive my mum. No one gives a shizz about me. No one understands me. Maybe, maybe i was a mistake. I want to die. No one knows the pain i feel inside, what i feel everyday. The pain that made me almost give up on life today. All because of one person, that i thought i knew. That i thought cared about me. But now i know, that there's nothing in this world for me. Sometimes, i think that everyone in my life, that i care about is just pretending. Like it's a trick on me, their trick to ruin my life. I can't even trust my best friends right now. I just don't know who to trust. Why do i have to be so trusting?!
Why do i have to be me?
Why does there have to be a future?
I'm scared of the future. Scared of what i might be.
I HATE my life. But, I have to trust at least my best friends.
well, ttyl
xoxo