ok, so the title is random,
but i forgot what i was gonna name this post,
and that just came into my mind,
actually, i think i forgot most of the things i was gonna write about.
*sheepish grin*
actually, i think the first thing i was gonna name this was,
"i survived the first day of Ramadan!"
but now i couldn't be bothered to change it,
i'm just to lazy!

Anyways,
so i survived without food, for roughly....
14 hours.
For those that know me, VERY WELL
i know your all surprised, and shocked!
lol but u guys shouldn't really be surprised,
coz i survived last year, and the year before that.
AND i've still got roughly....
10 hours,
of time for me to eat,
but i guess it's a good experience?
well, we're doing it for the right reasons,
we're not doing to starve ourselves,
we're doing it to teach ourselves!

And that's what the great Rara Smoothie wrote on her blog,
at 11.03 pm on monday, the first of September, 2008.

So, today, i helped cook!
Coz, one day, i hope that i'll be a better cook than my mum...
so i'm gonna help her cook
(if i'm not to lazy!)
we had stir fry chicken for dinner tonight,
and i helped cook it!
but stir fry, must be one of the easiest things to cook!
All you have to do is;
get a frying pan/wok or whatever you call them,
put oil in it,
put chicken in it,
add some veggies,
add some sauce (soy sauce, or something)
add some water,
wait til you think it's cooked,
(the whole time, your stirring it)
and then put it on a plate, and eat up!

see? It's so easy,
but i don't explain it well,
so i don't really expect you to understand!
tomorrow, we're going to have bubur ayam,
and, that's easy to make, i've helped make part of it before,
and then on wednesday we're going to eat
*rubs tummy while saying "mm"*
beef stroganoff!
and i've made that before,
and i haven't eaten it in AGES!!
and i love it! :D

so that's what we're going to have for dinner until wednesday,
oh, and i'm still persuading my mum to let me go out on Saturday!
i hope i can
*fingers crossed*
and on sunday, she wants to go to this moon cake making thing,
AND SHE'S FASTING!!!
and she thinks i'm crazy for wanting to go out on saturday?
geez
some women
*shakes head disaprovingly*
i will never understand them! lol

anyways,
so during ramadan, i have to wake up at like...
5.15 am every morning.
But it's not that bad,
considering i have to wake up at 5.30 for school.
psh, it's not my fault i live far away!
Whatever, you guys wouldn't understand.
When i was in australia,
i TRIED waking up at 6.30 every morning,
and i couldn't do it,
and i usually woke up at 7.30 or 8
or sometimes almost 9.
but i did wake up at 6.30 some mornings!!
maybe once or twice...

it's just like cleaning my room,
once, it took me 3 days to clean it,
and it's not even a very big room,
sure, it's bigger than my room in malaysia,
but.....meh
point being, it only stayed clean for about a week,
my mum...err...disaproved of my uncleaness i guess.

lol
omg.
i haven't even done my homework!!
but none of it is due tomorrow,
but URGH
i was going to do it today,
but i just got to lazy,
so i didn't,
which kinda got me in trouble,
but it doesn't really matter,
coz, as i said,
none of it is due tomorrow!

i went shopping today,
but i didn't really buy much,
and i couldn't be bothered to tell you what i bought,
coz there was only one thing that was bought for me.
But i did buy chocolate ice cream!!
Coz, MIRANDA told me to eat chocolate, and ice cream,
so i mixed it together,
and got chocolate ice cream!
(i don't think that they have ice cream flavoured chocolate yet)

i just realized,
that i'm attached to someone,
but i don't want to name names..
but, if i go through a whole day, without talking to them,
i'll be all sad...
oo
i wonder if they know that i'm talking about them..
I MISS THEM SOOO MUCH!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

it's been over four months since i've last seen my friends in aussie,
how sad.
omg
i can't even express how sad i feel, when i write.
well, i just realized that i haven't seen them in over four months,
and i realized that some things can make me sad, and happy at the same time,
and i just realized that i miss all of my friends like...
whatever, point being, i miss them...
and no amount of words can describe how much i miss,
and love my friends.
enemies, and people i hate, i can live without,
but really, if i didn't have any,
i wouldn't be the person i am today,
i could be better...
or worse.

whatever.
i miss them muchly!
(i'm talking about the friends in aussie, and i didn't know that muchly was a word!)
i can't believe, that i've hurt them so much..
by leaving them.
i made a sad poem about my friends once,
but, i forgot most of it,
but the one line i kind of remember,
is something, and then "they leave me standing in the rain"
coz it's true.
All the best friends i've aquired over the years,
well, most of them, have left me.
What ever happened to always being together?
i wonder if you guys remember me,
i wonder, if you guys miss me as much as i miss you.
i think i can remember most of your names.
Sarah Ware (even though, bad stuff has been said about her, she's still one of my close friends, coz nothing happened to us, like, no fights or anything, it's jus that she moved, after her mum died, it's actually a sad story)
Supun (me, him & shashank used to be best friends, i remember when we always used to hang out, and we all lived so close together, and i remember when i had that mermaid costume, and you guys were sailors, we had so much fun that day, what happened to us? i think supun moved away)
Shashank (we just grew apart, but he remembers that we used to be best friends)
Robbie (i know he remembers me, but i wonder if he remembers about us being best friends)
Sarah Simpkins (we always hung out with each other, and we had so much fun, and i think i was like, the first person to talk to you. Whatever, point being, i miss you so much!)
Natalie (she just started to hate me for some strange reason, i think it was because i started hanging out with other people, but she was still one of my best friends)

i think that's them, but really, there's just some names,
that i don't want to name them.

i hope that they remember the fun times we had together,
because i do, and i'll never forget them,
coz you guys were my best friends,
and, even though we're not best friends anymore,
i hope that we can be friends again,
but i know, that it's too late,
i don't even know where most of you are now!
i only know where robbie and shashank are,
but i doubt that we can be as good as friends as we used to be.
i doubt that we'll ever be friends again,

my life really sucks sometimes.
but why the hell am i sad?
there' s people, with lives WAY worse than mine,
like, the geisha's, the prostitutes, the people living on the street, the drug addicts, the, the..
well point being, there's heaps of people, that don't have the luxuries i have.
i have shelter, people that love me, money, food, and plenty of other things,
that why i donate money to charity,
but, i swear, giving tips, is like, something i don't like to do.
well, i guess if it was good food, and service,
then i'd give a tip,
but if it' at chilli's!!!
they like, charge 10% service charge,
and then the 6% or 5% of government tax,
and that makes it super expensive!!!

if only i had enough money to sue...
but i probably wouldn't win.
haha
a blog is an online diary, pretty much,
and, i tried keeping a diary, and it didn't work,
but, for some reason,
it's easier to write a blog,
i can jsut write about what's on my mind,
and, i know i have to cencor some things...
well, there's some things i wouldn't write about,
as if some would write something like,
"omg, last night was so awsome! i lost my virginity!!
and no, it wasn't to my boyfriend, it was his best friend,
actually, i think he's WAY better than my boyfriend,
but whatever, it was awsome!!"

who the hell would write that?!
their boyfriend could be reading it!!!
anyways, it's just so,
comforting, to write my blog,
so people can see things from my point of view,
or something like that.
anyways, i better get ready for school tomorrow,
and i love you all!!

ttyl