depression is a bad thing,
it's actually a sickness..
kinda.
well, point being,
it's a bad thing.
people end up going to a....
thingo..what's the name??
i think it's psychiatrist..
(i think)
people hurt themselves on purpose,
because they have the feeling that they can control themselves,
well, it makes them feel like they're in control.
this one girl, was normal,
and she thought that she was fat.
and she'd pinch every part of her body that she hated,
so she ended up with bruises all over her.
This other girl,
just started high school, and she was really excited about it.
But then she started to get stressed,
coz she had to much homework,
she stopped sleeping properly,
and she couldn't concentrate.
Her marks slipped, which made her even more stressed.
she started having panic attacks, and hyperventilating
one day, she just couldn't cope with it anymore,
and she had a breakdown on the classroom verandah.
Her mind was full of black thoughts, telling her to end it all.
She was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder.
now she's 18, and she made a full recovery.
so. i suppose what i'm feeling isn't depression.
i'm just sad, coz my life sucks.
i just want to know if i'm moving or not!!!
if i'm going back to australia,
there was no point in moving here in the first place,
and it was just wasting my parents money!!
but, making new friends is worth it,
but i HATE the exams!!!
that's hate with a capital H
it's like, every 4 weeks we have a exam!!
urgh.
life, isn't a bunch of exams.
what the hell happened to live life to the max??
yea, doing exams is totally living life to the max.
wtf?!
in australia,
we hardly had any exams.
and it wasn't all in one day
*glares at whoever came up with the idea of exam week*
but anyways...
so many things piss me off.
do this, do that!!
i want a LIFE,
i don't want to be a slave,
but i'm actually mother nature's slave,
to bad we can't kill her, to make us happier.
Why is she making us go through the pain??
why do us humans have to be so....
i dunno.
why can't we be like other animals?
why do we have to live in buildings??
i bet there wasn't a problem like this in the 18th & 19 century!!!
i think...that maybe,
i'm all hyper and happy at school,
coz....
i don't want people to see me sad,
but seeing my friends makes me hyper,
they make me feel so happy,
them being them,
us being random...
talking about people..
talking about random things..
why oh why???
lol.
now, coz i feel like writing, i'll tell you about yesterday.
So, first we had literature,
it was....alright-ish i guess..
Tarang stole Arissa's book,
and then, he eventually gave it back,
coz everyone found out.
lol
it was kinda funny, well he was laughing..
no offence or anything.
then we had maths, which was alright-ish.
kinda...err....how maths usually is,
but our teacher isn't here yet,
we're meeting her next week.
i hope she's nice/good!!
then we had french.
and the teacher wasn't at school.
So we had a free period.
and i was watching ally making a slide show,
and then we got in trouble,
well, pretty much the boys got in trouble,
well the ones that were playing computer games
*glares at them*
so then we had to sit in our seats, and put our macs away..
me & ally spent the rest of the time coming up with idea's for the movie!!
Then we had break, which was just like..
break!
lol
and then we had a double period of science.
and lucky me,
i convinced Ms Diana to move me to the 2nd group,
coz i was the only girl.
woot!!!
in science, we were measuring sepals....
don't worry if you don't know what it is,
it's kinda hard for me to explain!!
Then we had lunch, which was just..
normal, but the bad thing is,
the cooler/chiller thing that has the ice cream in it was broken!!
so i haven't had ice cream since....monday or tuesday!!!
so sad
:'(
then we had geography.
it was....alright/funny??
me & ally didn't really graffiti much in my book..
(there wasn't much space left, but now i've found some!)
and, when we said good afternoon,
shein said "good afternoon ms ass"
lol
freakin HI-larious!!
and then he couldn't stop laughing for the rest of the lesson,
geez..and i thought i was bad,
but him!!!
i'm ashamed of myself.
lol
then we had BM, which was just normal,
i mean, you already know about what happened in BM.
i can't believe i survived the first week of school!!
*screams*
but i still have to do my homework....
i wonder where there's a cliff that i can jump off..
wait, i don't need a cliff,
coz i live on the 29th floor,
i can just jump out of the window...
and in my will, i'll say..
SUE THE SCHOOL!!
(that's catchy! :D)
i can't believe it.
i just can't.
if i didn't move,
the courtney wouldn't have sat with my peeps.
so, now i have to come up with good names..
(for her)
and good comebacks..
lol
VERBAL ABUSE!!!
be afraid!
lol
but, i could punch her..
but for some reason..
i MIGHT get in trouble.
good thing i don't go to the school anymore,
or i'll be suspended!
:S
pfft. she sucks...
lol, she doesn't deserve what she has.
i can't believe she's racist!!!
wth?
she's so stupid.
saying that the aborigini's came to australia,
and took the european's kids..
wtf?
that's SOOOO not true.
everyone knows that it was a europeans,
that took the aborigini's kids,
that destroyed families,
that scared the aborigini's!!!
yeap...
courtney is a stupid cow..
but i think i gotta make a "better" name for her,
coz i think stupid cow is toooo good for her!!!
i woner what it's like, to kill someone..
oo
sounds like fun..
i proabably would,
if i wouldn't go to jail.
i'll find someone who deserves to die..
actually..
they don't deserve to die,
i'll find ways to make their lives a living hell,
so that they have to change schools,
or move!!!
i think,
if i do move back to australia,
i'll do the same elective's as katie.
:D
and i'll never forget who i love..
and hopefully i'll forget those i HATE
*fingers crossed*
ttyl
